breathe

I am crazy. I am losing you. I have done this before and I wondered why it wasn’t happening here yet. But there are no special moments really, are there? And I have sworn myself out of love before. I have lost myself like this over something as simple as this. I am suddenly swarming, dizzy, lost. How did this happen? Is it the remaining time or would it be like this anyway? I am not going to have you by the time I leave anyway because I am like this. And I only want to cry, why can’t I cry? Why aren’t you here? Why can’t you just come here and look at me and remind me so it all goes away? If you were freaking out I would know, I would get there some way or another to remind you, but you won’t. Love is a shadow on water. And you said you loved me more bit